I’m trying not to let myself get so negative it it keeps getting harder and harder. I hate noise, I hate the sound of people walking past my house, cars speeding up the hill, phones vibrating with a notification, wondering who will be the next person screaming in my face. I know I’m paranoid but knowing that doesn’t stop it.
But then these black thoughts surround me and the only light I see is from the little eyes looking up at me. I want to be stronge enough for him, I want to keep fighting but then I wonder, could I walk away from it all?